Kin 136: Yellow Rhythmic Warrior
Who are you? Who are we?
Sometimes in the middle of a sleepless night, the Unborn Essence is contacted.
When this realization comes there is a sense that YOU actually never existed, and what you thought was You was just a personality construct.
In the Middle of the Night, your life appears as a sequence of dreams with no substance, a hologram of moving images projected from an unnamed dimension.
When you see and experience this and realize that is actually true all the time for Everybody and Everything throughout the Universe, your heart breaks for all the absolutely unnecessary grief and pain experienced everywhere all the time.
And yet at the same time, the underlying Truth is that the Original Nature is always there unobstructed, waiting for us to Awaken from the Dream.
The following are some reflections and middle of night notes on current inner contemplations ….
MIstaken Identities and Courage to Be No-thing (what a relief!)
To become No-thing requires courage. It requires the deepest letting go into the vastness of our true Being. It requires siinking so deeply into the silence of the present moment that all trouble and worry liquify and flow into the ocean of Consciousness.
This world is like a case of mistaken identities. People attach to an identity. Then they are afraid of losing it. But why?
The truth is that we are ever changing multidimensional beings. Each one of us learns different lessons at our own pace. We are each a coded time release program.
When we learn to access the No-thingness then paradoxically the path quickens. Within the No-thingness are the portals to higher dimensions of being.
New stories, perceptions and ways of thinking and being are so needed on this planet. The Law of Time is living knowledge that introduces higher dimensions of consciousness into our awareness. This knowledge changes only according to our perception.
We need testimonies of those living life according to the inner dream rather than based on external appearance. This path can be extremely lonely at times, but a loneliness that touches the deepest poetic heart.
Currently “I” have been immersed in rewrites and edits of Uninscribed about the experience as a female initiate and apprentice to Valum Votan and GM108x. I am aware that this can sound “far out” to minds not accustomed to that type of reality. Yet for me it’s as normal as breathing as this Path emerged from becoming No-thing.
This project has been wrought with distractions and challenges. It is also putting me into a state of deep self-reflection. I had stopped several times for various reasons. I can feel the inner censorship and all of the levels of consciousness interpreting it even as I write it. It is an interesting process of self-study which opens to a full spectrum of reflections.
Personal is the Universal
It is interesting to note the recent spate of disparaging messages that I have received (and over the past 7 years) from people who want to tear me down for being whoever they feel that “I” am. Or else they point out how “I” am not living up to what they feel I should be based on their particular perception of reality. Even some close to me feel “I” should respond a certain way to politics or world events. It is an interesting psychological study.
I forgive them all as they just dont realize that they are projecting onto a transitory No-thing (in lak’ech). Though simultaneously it appears that certain knowledge (or frequency medicine) has been given to “me” for the benefit of others, so there is a duty to evolve and share it as authentically as possible.
Being hermetic by nature, I have hesitated to be overly public in order to focus on the inner work. I am currently not on social media and do not check email and text on an every day basis (so if you are reading and I havent yet responded please dont take it personally :))
The Universal journey comes with the Reminder:
What you are capable of has nothing to do with what other people think is possible for you. What you’re capable of achieving depends on what you choose to do with your Time and Energy.
Reflections on Social Media and Mental Health
Whose life are we living?
Are we living a life of Heart trusting our intution to guide us? Are we following our joy and passion? Or are we living a life we have been programmed to live (by society or family, etc)?
Recently there is much talk in media about mental health.
Suicide rates are skyrocketing. Many are falling into feelings of depression, despair and addictions of all types.
At its root, issues of mental health stem from feeling disconnected from Source. This can be viewed as part of a process of spiritual awakening rather than as a failure. It is an opportunity to get in touch with our true feelings and learn to master our mind and emotions.
Many people do not even know what their true feelings are, only what they are told to feel; and those feelings must fit into a politically correct box.
Operating our lives based on roles assigned to us by society (including friends or family) can be mentally and emotionally draining.
We live in an increasing hive-mind society where conformity and inauthenticity are celebrated. Those who dare have a thought outside the herd are treated with suspicion (at best).
Anyone who dare question the indoctrination is generally not met with kindness. And now in China we see the implementation of the “social credit score,” where every move you make is monitored and scored.
But why are people so threatened by those who question the status quo or mainstream narratives?
Perhaps because the Truth isn’t profitable. Or perhaps truth might disrupt every aspect of life as we have known it. The whole system would need to be rethought. Why else would we not take time to reflect on our most deeply engrained belief systems?
The most deeply engrained being the Gregorian calendar and false time matrix that holds the entire host of illusions in place. All the knowledge about the Law of Time was put forth as preparation to help people get off of the old grid of consciousness held in place by the mechanized 12:60 frequency. This frequency creates a fuzzy distortion matrix with increasingly amplified polarities without a greater vision.
We have to take time to find our own rhythm rather than try to fit into other peoples ideas about who we are or who they think we should be.
No-thing is the Doorway to Every-thing
The opposite of courage in our society is not cowardice, it is conformity. –Rollo May
All the worlds problems can only be resolved in a new consciousness.
Time operates in a spiral, bringing similar circumstances to our present time until they are resolved.
Outer activism can only be truly effective through the inner transformation of consciousness.
To become Nothing is harder than it might seem. It requires complete forgiveness of everyone and everything, including yourself. It requires the deep desire to want to feel Love and Connection above all else.
In this inner process we don’t avoid feelings, but honor and acknowledge them as a passageway into new levels of being.
These thoughts and feelings are experienced as different thinking layers held together by frequency waves.
Each of these frequency waves is guarded by (what may be interpreted as) interdimensional entities that test us by attempting to pull us into a particular time loop by manipulating our emotions. The trick is not to get stuck anywhere.
This is why it is so important to continously work to raise our frequency and expand our love and compassion for all beings. Rather than getting stuck in repetitious thought forms, we allow them to liquidize and wash clean the magnetic field imprints.
The Most High places a Shield of Protection around those who can accept Love into their hearts and who seek to see the harmony beneath the apparent chaos.
In this state of utter transparency we become ungraspable, slipping radially into the Nameless Center where we Remember that we have always been pure and